Lately this word had been a word that describes me and the way I share myself in person – transparent. If you ask me how I am I will probably answer honestly – overwhelmed. If you ask me how life is with two kids I will say – it’s a two ring circus and I am the failing ringmaster getting eaten by her own lions. If you ask me how the farm is I will respond – we are treading water and right now things are ok, things are better than ok but we continue to prepare for the future so we try to stay consistent. If you ask me why I haven’t blogged often – I feel uninspired, I worry about sharing too much, and I worry that I will look like I am complaining.
Often times we put on these happy faces, share our perfect photos, and say that life is perfect. Life is good. But often times it’s just darn hard. That’s my transparency for you on this blog.
I am very transparent when it comes to sharing about our farm, I tell you the good and the bad and share how and why we do certain things. I will even our our barn doors and show you what you want to see if you ask. I am transparent that my family doesn’t eat the healthiest via the recipes I blog, but we require comfort food so that’s what I share with you. However, when it comes to our own life and myself, I am not always transparent on this blog. I try to be careful with not oversharing and to not use this as a sounding board. But I feel that transparency is a needed thing with my blog and something I need to share with my followers because often times people think I have my life pulled together – I have a huge confession I DO NOT! Last night my daughter went to bed at 10:30 p.m. following a late night out with her aunts seeing Mickey and Minnie. She didn’t wake up until 8 a.m. and then we were running out the door to get them to their babysitter and so I could make a conference call by 9 a.m. Another confession, I think I have traveled more than I’ve been home over the last month and I am daily struggling to balance my real work, the farm and the kiddos.
I don’t have any answers on how to fix these things so I’ll just say that I will try to be transparent with you. Life isn’t perfect, life isn’t easy, and somehow we make it through! I may still be in the survival stage with two toddlers but I embrace all of it and I will share that more with you since you too may be dealing with the same struggles I deal with everyday.
Alica
I appreciate transparency! It’s all too easy to only share the good stuff, especially on social media. I for one, can attest to how insecure and sometimes ungrateful I feel when I see everyone’s pictures of their vacations and their “seemingly” perfect families when we haven’t gone on a vacation in years! So hats off to transparency and honesty…the good and the bad all wrapped up in one!
And from a dairy farm mom of two former toddlers who have now grown up to be college students…you will not always feel overwhelmed! 🙂